Hello. Welcome to all my new friends. This, as you veterens may notice, is my first blog. I am a 50 year old dinosaur when it comes to computer stuff. I have this so that I like many of you can share some of my life experience. Take what you like and leave the rest. As this blog matures you will see more clearly where my heart lies.

I have'nt set up much of my cover page so let me share now that I am a born again Christian. I gave my life to Jesus on November 26, 2000 at 3:43 pm. I like some of you never truly understood the born again thing until it happened to me. Needless to say my life was changed. Jesus showed me that He loved me unconditionally and that is what I want to share with any of you who desire to hear.

Let me start by assuring you of a few things. First I will not lie to you about anything. If you ask something I consider too personel or that may be injurious to those close to me I will not share. This may not be in the spirit of this medium but that is me. I desire no gain for this other than to share with you the infinite love of God.

I have written a book of my walk with God since my rebirth. I will in no way attempt to influence you to buy this book. It is another medium to share with all who will listen. It is not presently in publication and as I said I will not pump my book here. If you want iformation I will share it but you must ask.

I will not argue with you on this page. I realize there will be discussion and debate but we will not argue. If you appear to desire insult or antagonism I will do what is necessary to block you. You do not have to agree with what I share with you. What I share are my experiences and how God has carried me through the hard times.

Here is the Reader's Digest version. At the low point of my life I was a drug using, womanizing, gambling addict. While alchol never really grabbed me we were not strangers. I used one or all of these to combat my feelings of failure and low self-esteem. Suicide was never extremely far from my mind and had almost occured several years ago. While listening to a sermon by Rev. Billy Graham directed at a group of youth God opened my eyes to the truth. Rev. Graham told the audience that he was sorry that he could not go a day without sinning. This really shocked me. While I know he is just a man I believe him to be a great man of God. What he explained was that he would always fail because he wasn't strong enough. He told them that only way he could get through the day was with the strength of Christ. He explained that God knows we are weak and He wants us to use His strength to do our best. In hearing this I realized that God loved me anyway,even when I failed. It was like a weight had been lifted off of me. I had always felt that I had especially failed God. I believed in God most of my life and felt I had let Him down many times after He had helped me out of many bad situations. What I mostly realized is that God and Jesus love me no matter what. Even when I was sinning at my worst They loved me and desired better for me. I know as a parent I could never hate any of my children. I may not be able to accept their behavior or choices but I could never hate them. Most of any disappointment with them is about the hurt and pain they may cause themselves. This is what I hope to convey to any of you who thind you are unlovable, as I once did. God wants all of His children, especially the ones that believe the church roof will fall in if they enter.

If this reaches into your hearts I will do my best to help you love yourselves they way you should and the way Jesus wants you to. Yours in Christ